hey, had an ok day today, it felt like i lost all control but in reality i didn't even top 700 cal today.

going to the gym to do weight machines and then walk 16 min and run 4 min. today was the first time i had to dodge my parents to stop from eating. dad made stir fry, and i really couldn't eat that or else i would have topped 700 by a mile. so i ate a fep shrimp and then he went downstairs to his "Man Cave". our family isn't exactly loving... we really don't depend much on each other, but i'm really needy and attention whore-y.

i've recently gotten all the books about ED's at my library in my hands (at least the fiction and testimonial ones). currently reading Wasted by Marya Hornbacher and Diary of an Exercise Addict by Peach Friedman. both are really good, but i find Diary easier to read.

ttyl,
Elle




Update
Apparently i burned about 405 calories today so i'll lose weight. tomarrow, here i come. i'm going to see Wicked with my mom. i haven't really thought about how i was gonna eat there, but i'll make it work...somehow.
Love to you all,
Elle