ok girls, i'm gonna be fine.

i may not be on for a while, i've just gotta try really hard not to fall into that depression that's looming and i'm gonna try my damn-dest to pull my crashing plane up. binged last night and i was 269.0 this morning. FML.

I will be reading so don't feel abandoned, i'll comment when i can and when you guys need it.
i'll leave you with a poem that i wrote last night, it moved me to tears and i hope it helps you too.

Tunnel

Perfection for a moment
lasts a lifetime
and the memories of that journey
will last centuries before they fade
as all things do

I am broken for another reason
far different than most
for I had eyes that opened too early
and saw the world

Saw that princesses were pixels
and colors; the bending of light
Life had the fragility of a flower
pressed between book pages
hidden from time

I experienced the sensation
of a person touching the soul
and how the collapse of a teather
could send one completely adrift
with no lighthouse in sight

I experienced the darkness
of a deep depression
and the hope that came
when you saw the light
at the end of the tunnel

I DO NOT beleive
that I am out
I DO NOT beleive
that I will reach it soon

But I do know
That I WILL make it

love to the ends of the world
Elle



Also, anyone who also follows Dissapear Dorian, could you possibly give me the new name/address of her blog, i think i missed the change post.
thanks,
Elle