hello lovies,

last night i binged but managed to stop myself around 10:30 pm. then i tryed to purge but since i was little i've had a pathological fear of puking so that didn't work (and i'm glad it didn't b/c i don't wanna go there), so i took laxies, and this morning i was 273 lbs. Holy Shit!!!, that's the lowest I've been since starting this journey. i might get below 260 by next week. i know the laxies were a last resort but i felt that i really couldn't gain the weight back again, it would have torn me up and i'd be really angry.

I'm gonna try to cut artificial sugar (IE: processed crap) out of the food I'm eating and that should help keep the binging to a minimum.that was a big part of the bingefest last night, i started with 2 milkduds (30 cal) and it spiraled from there

i'm really happy that i lost weight even though it was b/c of laxies. i hope you all had better days yeasterday than i did.

keep your heads up beauties, we can make it. never let them see you cry.
Elle




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hey lovies, i didn't count very accurately today and i have project stress to deal with so...fuck. but i probably came in under 500 cal. so i feel alright. i'm going to the library tomarrow so probably no update but i have my meals planed and packed so no bingeing is possible. and Glorius stairs. (didn't get to the gym either but i'll try tomarrow.)
LOVE TO YOU ALL,
Elle