DAY THREE!!!

OMG GUESS WHAT, i fought temptation and i WON!! only 140 cal so far, and i'm feeling great. today is a 400 day, and i think it's better when you get close to the target number, even if you don't wanna eat. also i'm finding it easier to keep going if i think of all the fat dripping off my body as i don't eat.

ok, there's this girl in my choir class (she's a sophmore) and she is seriously OBESE!! like i can count her fat rolls underneath her clothes (5 to be exact, it's NASTY!!). and also there's this other girl (freshman) and she is soooo tiny, like wafer thin, like she shivers in AC b/c of lack of body fat and can't stand for long periods of time. i keep thinking about being the tiny girl, i keep her in my mind always (i don't really wanna be THAT thin, just enough to get some collar bones and hip bones. maybe a little ribcage action, but not crazy durastic or anything. i wanna FEEL GOOD!!

on a sadder note, my dad and i had a big fight again and i was really torn up about it, so my mom suggested i get counsiling. and i accepted, i'm kinda regretting it now that i think about it b/c i've never drawn attention to myself or my problems that way, it's just not what a "GOOD DAUGHTER" does. so i'm a little nervous,and my driving instructor has yet to call me and set up driving time and my permit expires this month on the 29th sooooo....(>.<)

hehe, i'm babbling now, i've got an ACT/SAT review class tonight, so i gotta eat a litte early. sorry for the rambling that was my post, i weight 265.6 in the afternoon without peeing yet, HELLS YES BABY!!!

LOVE AND KISSES FOR YA'LL
Elle