feeling good, only had about 2.5 glasses of water today but i'll make up for it. last night i was working on an english essay (said essay i said i was gonna do early,haha) and mom decided to order pizza and guess the fucking what.... i said no, and then when pizza arrived she got a different pizza than what she wanted (pasta along with her pizza, oh the carbs) and it was vegitarian and she again asked if i wanted any and i said no...again. where did this willpower come from??!! and so she SAVED IT!!! oh god, it's screaming at me from the fridge and i know that if i eat it i'll fail so hard, so i'm chanting to myself about how i WILL be pretty and thin and able to be picked up and twirled. how i'm an amazing, strong, eventually BEAUTIFUL girl who doesn't need pizza (nasty yucky pizza that will give me pimples) to be happy. i just have to be strong. i tell myself that that pizza is not going to vanish off the face of the earth just because i don't eat it now, when i deserve it i'll have it.
love, be strong and wonderful,
Elle
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