i suck, i'm stupid and other excuses

dumb, stupid, fat, ugly, worthless, crappy, loss of control, nasty = all things i feel right now.

i didn't fast yesterday and i did eat breakfast and dinner today. after 7 pm. like the fat whore i am. i'm out of laxies. and i haven't bought those pills yet. and i suck like a $2 whore.

good news is i now have a line in the School Musical, bad news is that the line involves me waving my arms wildly and i can feel the fat sloshing from side to side, like a curtain.

yuck can't talk now, have homework and i'm gonna try my best to fast for the next 5 days, if i eat it will be a raw veggie and fruit fast then.

seriously, anyone have diet pill recommendations, i'm at a loss here.
Elle